Sunday, August 21, 2016

It's Time For You to Write

For years I have had a blog, actually since 2007. It became an outlet, a passion and a platform of sharing love. Expressing myself by writing about what was going on in my life became a way of working through adversity. I really love to write.

I have been told many times that I need to write, write a book and continue my blog, and I was even given this verse

A friend gave me a word, She told me that God gave me the gift of writing and that I needed to start writing, I remember feeling so thankful that he would even see me, let alone give me a gift. I left our gathering that night in awe and thankfulness and I went home and sat down to write and Boom! Gone! My ability to write gone! It seemed I couldn't even focus on one subject long enough to even articulate about it. I felt devastated, I kept trying, Fear and Doubt hovered in the air.  I started unknowingly letting those thoughts in and it got worse.

I would stare at the keyboard or screen for hours, not knowing where to start.

I stopped even getting my laptop out. I stopped journaling, and I stopped even doodling.

This last year I have gotten reminders that I need to be writing, I knew it wouldn't be forever however I couldn't understand what was stopping me. Recently, My sister started pointing out self sabotaging behavior she would see in me, she would point out every negative comment I made about my self, every time I would say " I can't do it" or just "I can't", slowly but surely We started to see that I was killing myself with my words, each negative word that came out of my mouth ripped away at me.


Just this week I heard myself talking to one of my loves about writing, I was telling her to just start, don't think about it just start putting words on to the paper, our conversation continued and I really started walking myself through a healing as I was talking her through her own struggle. I heard everything God was giving me to tell her and he was ministering to me the whole time as well. He's really like that, you know.

So here goes, I am on a journey, I have a purpose and part of that purpose is writing about what I see, what I am experiencing or learning.

This morning I got a text from a friend telling me that God had put me on her heart the other day.

"It's time for you to write"
Yes, It's time.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

The song of my heart this week! Bethel Music- Walk in the Promise ft. Jeremy Riddle

Walk In The Promise"
Our souls wait in silence

In rest and in quiet for You, Spirit

In trust and dependence

We walk in the promise of You, coming

With hope and healing in Your wings

With fire and with wind

You fall on us again

Here we are waiting for this house to be shaken

For the boldness to carry Your name to the nations

Your signs and Your wonders to go now before us

For the weight of Your glory

To rest as we lift You up

We lift You up

We lift You up We lift You up